So, I think I’m going to start putting myself into the dating scene again. Judging by the way he acts towards me, my lover doesn’t want to take our relationship to that level right now. That’s fine; I wouldn’t want to be ‘that girl’ who guilt trips a guy into dating her when his heart isn’t in it.
He’s a fabulous man. He’s quirky, funny, nerdy, my favorite California boy; he sure isn’t perfect, but there for a while, at least he was mine. The connection I feel with him is wonderful, and it scares me a little that I won’t be able to find a man who makes me feel like he does. He certainly is great at what he does, and that voice in my ear makes me melt like butter. But y’know, maybe I don’t need a Master right now.
Maybe I just need a man.